100 For the FINAL Time

100 days… again. I can’t believe I’m here again. Yep, again. This is the last time. Reflecting on the past I see a lot of bad decisions and one of them was thinking I could have just one, just one pinch, and it won’t hurt me. Then I see the addiction slowly creeping back into my life. What was I thinking!? Why would I put my family through all of that again – my wife finding out I was lying and hiding it, my kids finding my chew cup and grossing out not knowing what the hell it was, and me having to explain what it was. “Son I have this addiction that’s going to kill me.” Basically, I was telling my son how weak I was.
Reflecting on the present, I couldn’t be happier. I feel great. Haven’t had chew in 100 days. I’m very proud of myself. I now realize chew is something I can NEVER have again. Not even in the least bit. Not one pinch or it’s back at square one. I’m an addict. I CAN NEVER HAVE IT AGAIN. Deal with it, move on.
I vow now as I did 100 days ago, I AM QUIT AND I WILL NEVER HAVE IT AGAIN. That’s my future. Even if I get cancer from all the years of dip, I can feel at peace knowing I was free. I can only pray for God’s strength and guidance to keep me away from the nic bitch.

Thanks to killthecan.org for your help and support for getting me through all this.
STAY STRONG BROTHERS, AND STAY QUIT!!!

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member Anewman