100 Days??? – Socks HOF Speech

100 days of freedom?? I can hardly believe it’s true – but oh how sweet it is.

First off – if we’re being honest, I didn’t think I would still be on KTC today at day 100. Actually, I didn’t think I would be on KTC (or still be quit) past day 10.

I had failed at this so many times I was braced for failure from the onset. I thought I needed nicotine too much and trying to quit was just grasping straws.

I can safely say I was convinced I would never stop nicotine for more than a week for the rest of my life.
I’ll never know why I signed up in the first place but I’ve never been so thankful to be wrong in my life.

You see (like many of those here) I allowed nicotine to become an integral part of my life, control my personality, and dictate many of my daily actions from a very young age.

I was that idiot who had decided to just never quit. I distinctly remember thinking “Isn’t it worth the risks if I enjoy it this much?”
You can never really appreciate how stupid all of that is until you make the decision to quit, At least that was the case with me.
It is all lies, this poison does not define me (or any of you). Now I see that all of these thoughts were nothing but my weakness.
If I can say this now, I assure you anybody reading this is capable of doing the same.

There was a defining moment in my quit that I attribute the rest of my quit to, it happened at around a week quit.
For some reason, the simple concept around here of “one day at a time” really sank in. I realized I had just been reading those words and not reflecting on them.
When I thought about what that looks like in practice, it became so clear.

Promise to quit for the day? Challenge accepted.

A quote came to mind when I realized this: “When the solution is simple, God is answering.” -Albert Einstein

So, every day since then I decide to accept the challenge and promise to quit for the day and pray that god will give me the strength to keep my word and keep that promise.

Then I make that decision tomorrow when it becomes today. The only thing that changes for me is that decision becomes easier each day.
In the past 100 days myself, that promise, and that prayer have made it through quite a few trials. I don’t plan on changing that formula anytime soon.
I’m going to quit today with the same intensity as day 1 then I’ll see you all tomorrow for my day 101 decision.

This site has been a blessing to me, no doubt. I know that without it I wouldn’t have made it past the first week.
I thank all of you who invest time and effort into this site – you are changing lives continuously and it is admirable.
Thank you to all of those who have supported me here, I am sincerely grateful for each of you.

Socks – Day 100

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member Socks000