Can You Go a Whole Day Without Thinking About Dip?

bucky24 @ Apr 16, 2008, 8:43 pm

This is my first post outside of posting roll call so I may ramble a little. I was having some thoughts today about dip, quitting and this website. I’ve been quit for 26 days and use this website for numerous reasons. 1. motivation from all of you, 2. information, 3. meeting place 4. listen/give advice to others (who would want to talk). At this point in my quit, I feel as though I NEED this website for the above mentioned reasons simply because I miss stopping by the gas station at 7:00am every morning, buying a fresh can of Kodiak ($6.29 in Iowa if you can believe it!) and throwing in a fatty on my 30 minute drive to work. I fuckin’ miss it like crazy. Granted, it’s gotten better with time, but it’s still a bitch.

A day or two ago, there was some discussion as to what “quit” meant and that the word “quit” has different meanings to different people. To me, quit means not thinking about chewing again. Plain and fuckin’ simple! Quit means to not go to the gas station and look behind the counter to find the shit I used to throw in my mouth. Every time I’m at the gas station, my eyes scroll behind the counter to find Kodiak. I know I’m not going to buy it, but I want to see it for some strange reason. Maybe I’m being naïve, but will it ever be possible to go days or God forbid, a week without thinking about dip??? I sure as hell hope so.

I ask all of those who have been quit for lets say a year or two or more. Can you go a whole day/week/month without thinking about dip? If so, why do you continue to post roll and contribute to this website? If you do so as a mentor to others, that’s awesome and very admirable, but does coming to this website and engaging in conversation about dip bring back times in your life that you would rather just forget about (times when you used to dip)? Like I said, I may ramble a little, but just wanted to share some things I had on my mind.

Thanks for your time

Turkey’s Response….@ 46 days.

I totally know what you mean. Sure I still think of Dip and the “good old days.” Those are memories I have. I will never forget that I dipped or who I was when I was dipping. That was a big part of my life, how could I forget.

I also would go to the store early in my quit (real early) and let my eyes browse the dip case. Check all the sales, brands, flavors, etc. Your quit is a mind fuck, your mind will tell you what you let it tell you. The next time I went to the store I told myself I will not look, fight the urge to look. I mean what difference does it make what berry fruity cum covered worm shit skoal has out now? Don’t care, don’t give a rat’s ass. I can go into a store now grab a pack of gum, drive away and say to myself “holy shit do they still sell that shit because I didn’t even notice.”

I was with two co-workers tonight who were dipping. I am proud of myself because I didn’t crave it nor did I want it. It down right grossed me the fuck out watching them spit and drool all over themselves. No I am not some hard ass quitter that has all the answers but I did prepare myself mentally for that situation. Like I said its a mind fuck. I told me what I was going to tell myself in that situation. Does that make sense?

The only thing I can compare this to is listening to the Biggest Loser and I also read in a weight watchers mag. This is not a diet, this is a lifestyle change. Change your lifestyle and you will have a better chance of succeeding. Change your lifestyle have a better chance to beating and controlling your addiction. Don’t put yourself in a bad situation. Be prepared.

I don’t have all the answers for everyone but I did figure out what works for me, I came up with my game plan and I’m sticking with it. I’ve struggled, I’ve fought, I still struggle at times, a lot of times, but I prepare for it. I’m ready for it. I am not surprised if I have a crave. I am surprised that I know how to handle a crave and make it go away.