Comma and a Half
1,500 days ago I became a quitter.
For 1,500 days I’ve been fighting this fight and for 1,500 days I’ve been winning. Does that mean that my battle is done? Absolutely not. While I certainly feel more confident in my quit then I did when I was 15, 150 or even 1,000 days quit, I’ve learned enough over the years to know that the Nic Bitch is right there waiting for me to fuck up and have “just one”. It’s not going to happen. I’ve worked too hard and I’ve got too many good friends on the site to let them down.
1,500 days sounds like a long time, but when I recognize that I chewed for over 6,500 days it starts to shrink up a little bit. That being said, I’m starting to feel that my quit has got some legs underneath it. That’s partially due to the fact that I’m accountable to a bunch of great people and I’ve got a great support network around me to call on should I run into any problems.
Thanks for everything folks – Very much appreciated.
Here’s to the next 1,500 days.
51 years old. Been dipping Cope since I was 10. Stopped or almost stopped yesterday for the first time ever. Never wanted too before. How many cans a week? who cares.
Almost drove my truck, horse trailer, girlfriend, horse, and good dog into a culvert yesterday. Driving home in a dipless fog… Poured some Jack D. into a old dryed up can with a little in it. I took the one dip for the ones I loved. I am quitting for me not them, I don’t think that it will work any other way. Left the Jack D. And Old Dip in for 15min, then i spit it out in disgust.
I don’t want kill anyone doing this though.
20 year old daughter wisely figgured it was time to go visit relatives. I am sitting here at the computer in a fog. I wonder if i can grind up the mouse and dip it. I am wondering how it would taste?