Approaching 100

Getting close to 100 here……just wanted to share some quick thoughts.

Haven’t touched a can of dip in almost 100 days now. I didn’t join the site until Nov 11, because I thought I could quit on my own. Matter of fact, I went 31 days without dipping during a “Sober October” challenge, which Im sure some KTC members are familiar with. But man, from Nov 1 to Nov 10 I knew I didn’t need to make multiple trips to buy dip, yet I still did. I’ve had internal battles with myself over dipping for almost 2 years. I know that might be rookie numbers compared to some fellow quitters, but I can assure you its still a tough battle to fight alone.

Coming up on 100 days and I cant say the temptation is any less.  I live alone. I share an office with my boss, who goes through 2-3 cans per week it seems.  The workload in January-February for me is brutal, and many times it involved 4+ hour bus rides. When I was a basketball player in college, I would always look forward to bus trips because I knew I could dip. If someone told me 5 years ago that I would still be taking bus trips but as a coach, and that I would not be dipping on them, I would have called that someone crazy. The temptation is still there, but when I think about the members of this site I am able to control it a bit.

Im grateful for the site and the good people that make up the community. All of us are on different paths, in different locations, from different backgrounds, with different motivations, but in the end we are all trying to improve the quality of life for ourselves and our loved ones. That is really cool in my view. I know I haven’t gotten to know many of you, as the nature of my job really doesn’t permit me to be on my phone for personal use too much. Please know I appreciate those who have reached out to me.

I hesitate to write this post since I know nothing changes. Day 100 and I still have cravings often and early. But I also know that I’ve got a great resource and a bunch of great people to turn to if I ever were in serious danger of caving.

Special thanks goes out to Klark, who was my basketball coach back in Middle School. I saw his FB posts and that is the sole thing that pushed me to join this site. I hope to be able to positively impact my players’ lives as he has done for me. Also thanks to VFman, Ankape, Chris2Alaska, and TwinCitiesMN.

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member Hoopsguy42