Erussell HOF Speech
I am so happy today, feeling ten foot tall, and proud of myself. I had a lot of support. I have tried to pay back to the community for all that KTC has done for me yet I find that I receive more support than I can possibly give.
My intro
(Reversing twenty years is more painful than expected. Using the patch and making it. Was doing some research and stumbled on this amazing site. I’m sure this will help. I have not told many of my friends and family. No Copenhagen for two full days now.)
Wow, I got schooled quickly by many on the fact that this is a no nicotine site. To be honest I barely read or researched KTC prior to posting my intro. I was frantically looking for help so I quickly posted just after locating the site. I then read and read and read. And I began to see how and why the site works. I began to drink the kool aid as fast as I could paying no mind to how corny it seemed. Newbies, Don’t try to change the method or argue your way. Follow the program, it works.
The suck omg
Then came the suck, mine lasted longer than two weeks and was freaking miserable. My assistant at work sent me home twice due to my not making sense. I was so confused and disoriented, concentration was impossible. I had strong tussles out to 50 days and mild bouts of it all the way out to 80 days! ! Glad to be through that. Newbies, this pain is worth it and it helps me now, I know I never want another day one. Enjoy the suck.
Anxiety attack WTF
On June 4 I was sitting in my office and for the first time ever I experienced a full blown panic attack for no damn good reason out of nowhere . The most terrifying experiences I’ve ever had. I skydive, scuba dive, bungy jump, Spunk , rock climb, race street bikes; dangerous you name it, but that was the most terrified I have ever been. Applejack kept me from jumping off a bridge that day, seriously!
Leadership role
My quit is modeled after several bad ass quitters that I wanted to be like, because I could tell they knew how to quit. I hadn’t noticed I was getting responsibility as this quit continued. Worktowin pointed that out to me. Then reading post from others I noticed……… Oh shit… Folks are looking to me for help. Wanna talk about accountability for staying quit… this made my quit pretty damn strong and made me feel pretty humble, what a honor! I would like to say to any newbie reading this, if you want to quit help as many others as you can!
The support from the wife incident
Come home, holy shit…. House is empty! Jesus, what did I do please help me…… Post this issue on KTC, Support happens so fast that I can’t keep up with the replies, which kept my mind super busy for a few days, not only saved my quit but my sanity. Newbies, life can hand you shit that will make quitting hard, get invested into KTC as fast as you can. Don’t wait around do it now read, learn, swap digits, and get involved day one! Not only my inner circle came to my rescue but bad asses from all over this site. I thank all that took time to reach out to me when this occurred, you saved me and my quit!
Meeting Srans
I have had several opportunities to meet other quitters and as schedules got in the way… well we can do it later… It’s not that big of a deal anyway right? Bull Shit! If you can, make this happen. It will put nails in nic’s coffin. I will be pushing my geographically close by quitters more. And Srans when the opportunity arose I was so excited, not everyday you get to meet Srans in person! Then learning that he really is a bad ass in person, every bit as much as he is here on the site made my quit that much stronger. Newbie do it, go meet with some of your close by quitters.
Reaching the first floor
Today I stand before you humble to be an HOF member; a quit day like any other but a milestone. Today is proof that anyone can quit by this method. To all newbies or those contemplating a quit, it’s not as far off as you think, and it feels so bad ass, it’s like the first time you ever got laid. It is one of, if not the most, treasured accomplishment I have ever experienced in my life. Newbie, it is worth the pain! You can get here just as I can and will get to 200, by using the tools and methods of this site without deviance. This site make quitting simple, not easy but simple. Post roll, keep your word, establish accountability to your brothers and sisters, and live by the code of the brotherhood.
Wow HOF, 100 days. The vets say that is the number of days that my quit begins. I’m not only quit, but I have embarked on a positive life change. Newbie, if you are reading this please pull the damn trigger its your freedom and possibly your life at stake, don’t remain a slave another damn day. Thank you all that have helped and supported me, my life has been changed in a positive manner by each of you. Instead of listing you all out I posted with you and sent PMs, I am blessed with more support than I can list here. I quit with each of you everyday and I do it as hard as I fucking possibly can!
Erussell DAY 100!!!!
NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member Erussell
