Escaping The Frost
I was 19 when I was introduced to my kryptonite. Camel Snus Frost was $1 a can when I started chewing all those years ago. The last can I bought was almost $5 a can. Talk about a price increase over 15 years! I did manage to get away from old frost a few times, however staying away was always the issue. I quit while I was pregnant with our son, however when he was 11 months old, I picked frost back up again. I found KTC the first time August 4, 2014 and I was in with the Stone Cold Quitters group. I managed to stay quit for 4 years! I slowly stopped posting. I felt like I had a good handle on my quit and didn’t need to waist my time posting anymore. That was my first mistake.
May 2018, I was on a girl’s trip and got really cocky. Most everyone was smoking, and I thought “I can chew while I’m here and quit when I get back home. No problem I got this”. This was my second and BIGGEST mistake. I would “quit” for a week at a time, basically long enough to make me feel like my husband was convinced I was quit then I would go back to Snus mint. It didn’t seem like it had as tight of a grip on me as frost did (or at least that’s what I told myself). The mint also didn’t give me the “relaxed” feeling that frost did. I ended up loosing it completely and fell back into the nic bitches’ clutches. However, the day my 6-year-old daughter asked me “can I have some of your special gum mommy?” was the day I knew I had to do something about it. August 29th, I took my lashings and came back to what I knew worked. I just knew I was going to get my ass reamed out for caving, but I also knew I deserved every single word that would come my way. However, I was welcomed back with open arms. I would strongly urge anyone who’s serious about their quit to be vigilant in posting every single day no matter how many days you have under your belt. If for some reason you can’t post, get someone’s digits and have them post for you. Buy the fake stuff, chew gum, do whatever you need to do to get through the craving. They do get easier! Becoming comfortable in my quit was ultimately my undoing. Don’t let it be yours as well!
NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan community member Lao
