My HOF Speech on a Cell Phone

I’m doing this on my cell phone so not gonna be the best work ever.

So need to be truthful i started when i was 12 but didnt use to many cans that year so i packed my lip 8700 days out of 36 years. Fastforward right now im at 121 days into my quit its a drop in the bucket when they are compared but im still proud of it. Last week was rough tired didnt sleep good anxiety fog it did not feel much like winning. But i put to much pressure on myself to think after 100 days it would all change i chewed 3/4 of my life, i dont have many memories when i wasn’t dipping and thats sad. I’ve also had times lately when I’ve felt the best in years. I had a dip in if i was awake last time i ninja dipped was high school.

So i quit to be healthy, but i was trying to lower my bp and chew i felt could make it go up some. Most of the quitters I’ve seen quit from fear of cancer was never really my fear. But i researched all the things using does and it helped me make my quit happen. I never looked up the effects cause ignorance is bliss didnt wonna know. I did know quitting would make me be healthier , but the addict in me told me that will be to hard. My wife had wanted me to quit since i met her but would tell her like a jerk i started this way before we met so I’m not quitting. My kids looked up chewing tobacco and were super upset that the info they found talked about how it kills people. My two oldest came up to me and asked why would i do something that will kill me. They were legitimately upset like thought by doing this i would be dead next month. I told them I’d be fine it wont kill me knowing it could. I had to explain addiction to my kids tell them basically i cant quit cause its to hard for me to stop. I felt like a piece of shit telling my kids the stuff i put in my lip is more important to me than spending time with them. That day i knew i would quit cause i want to spend as much time as i can with my kids and wife. I wanted to show my kids that im stronger than any addiction. At 100 days they made me a quit cake took a picture all of us around it put it on Facebook so everyone knows I’ve quit.

So im very thankful for this site, its crazy but it does keep you quit. I could tell my wife i had to put this dip in cause the fog or craves are to strong but the people in my group or on this site are right there in the shit with me and they would throw out bullshit flag on me and i think thats one of the ways this site keeps me quit. If they can do it i can do it.

So i need to thank my wife more than anyone cause without her i never would have quit and my kids for helping to push the weakness out of me. I need to thank all those who helped me on this site Zeno mike1966 Youngforever and mostly netgain.

I am proud i made it this far but last week showed me i have a long ways to go one day at a time. But i think around one year mark quit will be much stronger.

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member jMcKay