New Beginnings – Open Up a New World

I’m not really sure how to even start a HOF speech. So I will just begin with my story…..

I grew up loving the game of baseball . I grew up idolizing the players, the way they carried themselves on and off the field. Back in the late 80’s early 90’s there was a lot of pro ball players chewing and dipping . I used to beg my mom and dad to buy me the packs of big league chew so I could emulate what I saw on t.v. as I was playing wiffle ball in the back yard with my friends. As I turned 15 I starting hanging with new people who had access to smokeless tobacco. So sitting around a campfire I thought i try to fit in and so I packed a pinch and put it in my bottom lip. Shortly after I was throwing up like a champ! lol . That should have been my warning to never put that shit in my mouth again. Needless to say I did and eventually my body got used to it….. wanted it…..craved it.. needed it.

Fast forward 16 years . I am now 31 years old. I have a beautiful wife and a 7 yr old son. My mouth hurts all the time and I am always trying to find a fresh place to put my next pinch of grizzly. Spit bottle all over my car and around the house. My son becomes very curious about the round can in my pocket and starts asking me questions. I tell him it is just some nasty shit and I never wanna see him doing it. He asks me why, I respond because it will give you cancer and it is very addictive. Of course he asked what cancer was and I broke down the grizzly truth of what it was. He had a small tear in his eye and said and I quote ” But Daddy ……… I don’t know what I would do if you died” At that very moment in my life I knew that I was failing him, my wife and most importantly myself. How could I let myself get this addicted to this shit?… how could I let it control aspects of my life without me even realizing it?

I was always the guy who said “I cant quit whenever I want. I have control!” So I decided to quit that very day. I told my wife my plan as I had been researching this wonderful site already. Her response was ” Whatever…. you have tried before and here we still are!” I took my last dip that evening and when I tossed it I got on here and registered. Instantly Cmark hit me up . Asked me if I was quit and if I was ready to. He walked me through how to post roll and taught me to commit to quit on a daily basis. Not only for my quit brothers but mostly for myself!. Since then I have posted roll every day for the last 102 Days without missing a beat. There were a few days that I had to get a push from my boy Morgan1. See I met morgan on here and we hit it off quick as we had the same interests and even work for the same company! He is my quit brother and he held me to my promises harder than anyone I knew!

So that brings me to my thank yous. If i leave anyone out I am sorry and you know I love you all. Gotta thank Cmark for getting me addicted to this website and helping me learn what life is truly about. Morgan1.. what can I say brother. You were there for me if and when I needed you and you are truly someone I consider a friend. Sacubsfan.. You are one of the baddest quiters I know. You are always good for making me smile .Thanks for always being there man! ethan, Roamcountry, americanurse34, BigWhiteBeast and 30isenough. Thanks for helping me through this tough time. Wedgie. You were there with words of incouragement on a daily basis even though you have your own stuff to worry about you always put others in front of yourself. I wish you and your family the best of luck with everything and cant thank you enough for pulling me through some tough times.

In closing I will give some advice to any newbz reading this. This will suck! It will kick you when your down and not think twice about it but know this. You CAN do this! You WILL do this! Take it one day at a time, one minute at a time, even a second at a time if you need to. Promise yourself to quit for just one single day and then do it again tomorrow. You will open up a world that you probably didn’t even know existed! Love yourselves first and foremost, and please, when you have conquered this, pass along your wisdom that you have gained and never forget the trenches of hell you have or are about to go through . I love each and everyone here……..

FosterChild

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member FosterChild