Now What?

I’m here. I made it. Yay me……now what?

Now what? I tell you now what. Now I get up tomorrow and I do it again just like I have the past 100 days. Reaching this milestone changes nothing. I’m an addict and addictions don’t recognize man made mile stones.

Now what? I tell you now what. Now I come on this site and post roll and make a daily promise and keep it. If I could have done this on my own I would have done it already. I tried and failed to do it solo in the past, it doesn’t work. There is no structure, no accountability when you only answer to yourself.

Now what? I tell you now what. Now I still go in chat. I talk with the guys and gals who got me through some of the foggier, bitchier, moments. I chat with the highest order of assholes, who pissed me off until I was seeing red on Day 1, but did nothing but strengthen my resolve to quit in the end. I won’t name names because there are too many, but you all know who you are.

Now what? I tell you now what. Now I find a rookie coming in, and adopt them. Help them to get where I have just gotten. Now I pay it forward. See them through the hard times like some of you have helped me.

Now what? Now I go on with my life. Now I go on without the addiction. Now I just go on….

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member southtexasman