One Year – Haven’t Looked Back Since
A year ago, around this time, I was lounging on my couch with a dip in my face thinking what it would be like to quit. My wife had just made a comment about not ever being able to kiss me, not when I got home from work, not before dinner, sometimes not even before bed. I always had a cat turd in. I think that is what really sparked my interest in quitting, at first I honestly didn’t have that much of a desire to quit. I kept telling her I could quit whenever or, she would not like the person I became when due to withdrawals. What a load of crap I was telling myself.
It wasn’t until I found KTC that I realized I needed to quit, it wasn’t going to be easy, and I had to quit for myself and nobody else. So that night I made a profile. I couldn’t post as I had shit in my mouth and was honestly scared. I knew when I posted my name as quit I could never go back to the can. It took me until the 4th of August 2015 to have the courage to post my day 1. I haven’t looked back since.
It hasn’t been easy, to say the least. The first month was probably one of the most difficult things I have done in my life. To go from dipping first thing in the morning to last thing at night for over 10yrs, to being quit cold turkey, will wreak havoc on a person. If it wasnt for this place I doubt I would have made it a week. I made it a priority to use this site and all it has to offer. It is free to sign up, but there is a price to belong to this brotherhood. You post your promise first thing Every Day and you keep your word that day, no more, no less. It ain’t easy to be quit but it is damn sure worth it.
So, to all my Zombros of November I want to say thank you, let’s keep this train rolling for another year, ODAAT. To PatrickG and anyone else who reached out early, thank you, your encouragement was a huge boost to keep at it when things got tough. To you new guys, suck it up and keep your word, fight however you have to keep the shit out of you mouth. Use this place and you will be successful if you want it bad enough. There’s no going back once you quit, why would you want to?
Vance
NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member Vance
