Scrap77 – HOF!!!

I lay in my bed, eyes half closed
Wheezing and sighing….is this how it goes?

It hurts to breathe in, I cough all the time,
But not like you, blood comes with mine.

Goddamnit, I want a cigarette so bad
I can taste the smoke still…..I start to get sad.

They were with me so long, while weak…or strong
They stayed with me longer then people I’d known.

They were always around, like a very close friend,
How ironic it is that they caused my end.

Who’s that coming in? My wife, my son?
No….go away….this is not how it’s done….

Daddy, I love you…..will you be around
To see me walk in my graduation gown?

Or go to the movies or swim at the beach,
You always told me you’d be within reach!

My wife, my son….I won’t be around.
I’m 30 years old and let you both down.

I lay in my bed, eyes totally closed.
I draw my last breath….this IS how it goes.

So….I’m a nicotine addict. Always will be. I’m a smoker but my close friend BBJ directed me to this site when I told him I was very serious about quitting. He said it didn’t matter that I’d never dipped…..nicotine is nicotine. He and all of you saved my life. And I’m forever grateful for and humbled by that.

All of you Brothers, HOF’ers, and NEWBIES, STICK WITH THE POSTING EVERY DAY!!!!!! There were days I didn’t feel like posting but I did it anyway. And whenever I got the urge to light up, somehow, this little pledge…..this little group…..this little KTC site would creep back into my head and yell…..WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING!!!! You can quit. You can. Do it for yourself. Do it for your wife, your mom, your dad, your kids……but do it for YOURSELF!!!!! The sense of strength and pride I have for making it to day 100 is something I never thought I’d feel. And this is just the beginning…(don’t forget that)

And now I’m never gonna be the guy I wrote the poem about. No way. When I die……I’m gonna die healthy. And so will you.

Thank you….ALL of you….for my life.
Steve (scrap77) Berlen
OK BBJ…..Let’s go for a REAL mt. bike ride now!!

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member Scrap77