This Isn’t Gonna Work For Me

We all find KTC eventually because we know we have a problem and we are looking for a solution. Solutions come in several forms which you are already familiar with. I tried a few that were going to ween my consumption down. That method failed because I wasn’t held accountable. I chewed gum all day and changed those patches out like clockwork. I didn’t wanna quit. Those are the methods I used to show other people I was trying for them. Here we dump the can, grit our teeth, growl and get through it for ourselves with our quit brothers and, yes, sisters.

A few minutes of browsing this site and I knew it wasn’t going to work cause for me. Posting my name on a forum wasn’t going to keep me from my addiction. However, since I had nothing to lose I signed up.

Prior to KTC I had no concept of accountability and no desire to be held accountable by anyone for anything. If I were being held accountable I wouldn’t be able to make excuses to go buy another can. That thought raised alarms in my head and I knew my addiction was working to get me the hell away from accountability as fast as it could. Ive always liked to leave myself a way out. My addiction likes that too.

In spite of myself I started reaching out to fellow quitters asking them to exchange phone numbers and hold me accountable. If I hadn’t done that I know that nicotine would’ve done some real head trips on me eventually. It would’ve said that I could disappear – poof.

The rules for staying quit here are very simple. Post your promise not to use nicotine on the roll first thing every day and keep your promise. Some of us like to challenge rules, even simple rules like the one above. Read it again, does it sound difficult? It’s not.

Quitting wasn’t easy and it wasn’t hard either. I got through the suck just like everyone said I would. I got involved in discussions and helped with group accountability. I posted my promise every day and kept it. I became a part of the team. I need to be part of the team and I need to be held accountable or I will fail by choice eventually.

Put away your preconceived ideas about quitting and what it takes. Push your ego and addiction to the background long enough to swap numbers with a few folks and you will find success here.

Thanks to Frazzled for stepping in and pulling me to the side for some clarification in the beginning. Thanks for holding me accountable.

Thanks to Hando for emailing me while I was sitting on the fence and telling me to get my ass in here so that I could be held accountable.

Thanks to ALL the guys in August 2015 for posting roll and holding me accountable. Without you guys…I would have failed again.

Accountability is the only thing that has kept me quit for more than 3 days in a row for 30 years.

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member screaming monkey