What Keeps Me Quit As a Noob?

I’ve “tried” quitting numerous times and didn’t have the testicular fortitude to get the job done. So, what’s different now? I’ve seen all of the pictures of cancer along w/ the posts that go along with the pictures in the past. They never fazed me. This time was different, much different. I “ran into” the Tom Kern story. I read it, numerous times. I wrote an e-mail to Jenny Kern and she replied back to me. I “found” Kenzi on facebook and she befriended me. Not only did I find the story, but I made a true connection w/ the story. I truly connected with the hurt and pain that is still heavily infested into the Kerns’ lives. My heart goes out to them and made the oath to my lovely bride I would not put her through this, and that oath was signed on April 21, 2010-a mere 36 days ago.

What else is different about this quit as opposed to other “bs quit sessions?” Another one for me is huge: blood pressure. My blood pressure unmedicated was 185/105. I’m in decent shape: I lift often and run often. I’m a bit overweight, but even when I was lighter, I was still at this same BP. I got off the dip and a week later, my bp dropped to 118/79, so I was taken off the bp pills.

This time I am serious and will NOT cave. There is nothing large enough in this world that would make me cave. There is nothing large enough in this world that would make me put a product in my mouth that can give me mouth cancer or give me a heart attack/stroke. It’s purely not worth it. I give the majority of the effort to Jenny Kern for replying to my e-mail and just as much effort to Kenzi for the facebook chat sessions we’ve had. The blood pressure is a compliment to the Kern family’s efforts on responding to my e-mail, which lead to chatting w/ Kenzi.

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan Support Forum member kb81