Without Levi

Guess who’s back?
Back again
Levi’s Back
Tell a friend

This is not my first time to KTC, but it is my first time to the Hall of Fame. If I didn’t let the nic bitch win, I would have been a proud member of October 2019 – The Vortex Raging Roctober Brothers and Sisters of Quit. However, I never stuck around past a few days because I wasn’t ready to quit. The nic bitch told me that one dip here and there would be ok, but slowly over time it went from one every few days, to once a day, to a few a day and all the the way back to a tin or more a day. I was chewing constantly.

Then one day I stumbled upon “Jenny and Tom Kern’s Story” on the KTC site again and it resonated with me like no other. I didn’t want to leave my family to deal with this world without me. Instantly, I wanted to quit tobacco for me, not my kids, my wife or any other reason, I want a shot to watch my family grow and witness the good, the bad and the ugly with my family for as long as this world will have me. You see, Jenny Kern lives in the town where I currently live. I’ve seen her children post on this website talking about how they wish their father was present for milestone moments and for the little things where they need to call their dad… but they couldn’t.

I poured my tin into the toilet and never looked back. My HOF group – November 22 Nutjobs will probably tell you that I have picked up quite well with the accountability of KTC. Hell, a few other groups will probably say the same thing. WUPP – Wake Up, Piss and Post, is something I firmly believe in, I’m making a promise to myself and my brothers in the November 22 group to not use nicotine for the next 24 hours. My toughest test is the next 24 hours, nothing more – nothing less. As nick-Otine Free says “Let today be enough” it reminds me to face my battles head on and at the end of the night, go to sleep and re-charge and ready for battle tomorrow. If you feel you are on the losing end of your battle, please read the Jenny and Tom Kern Story before you shove a turd in your lip or use any other form nicotine again.

Besides some basic terminology and some great reading, KTC is so much more, it’s family. We have brothers and sisters in here who have a lot of knowledge of the journey we have embarked on and guess what? They are willing to give you advice for free, they will let you come in and complain, but most importantly they will be here to set our head straight when we are not thinking clearly. I mentioned a brother/sisterhood earlier and that means telling us the truth, even when we do not want to hear it. Whether he knows it or not, Keith0617 pounded this into my head when I came back to KTC. He called me out for not being a man of my word and made sure I answered the 3 questions to my current and former group on how this was going to be different for me. For a second, I became defensive and was about to tell him to take a hike, but then I realized he was right. If I didn’t treat this quit differently, I would end up in the same spot.

I owe everything to this site, but in order to do that, you have to embrace it. I looked at this site for years, but the resources didn’t do me any good until I decided they were my playbook. Now, I am dangerous and ready for any battle the nic bitch throws my way and if they things get dicey, and my plays are not working. I can call upon any of my November Nutjob brothers to help.

I want to give a big shout to @barnabus for reaching out to me and giving me his digits early on in my quit. @Chick, for teaching me SSOA and being a constant mentor for many on this site, and @allenran for asking me to help with updated the SSOA for November group. Lastly, to my Nutjob brethren, we are a large and mighty group with many differences. However, this group is not complete without all of you, and I am so thankful for a group of people I have never met. You helped me stay quit many times whether you all knew it or not.

“KTC’s a concept that works
20 million other users emerge
but no matter how many users in the sea
It’ll be so empty, without me.”

**For those of you that do not get this, Eminem’s “Without Me” was tied into my HOF speech. It was the first song that came on after I read the Tom and Jenny Kern story.

Your brother in quit.
Levi

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan community member Levi